What are your stats? (current weight, goal weight, height, age) & Challenge Week 1, Day 1

Stats:
Current Weight: 140lbs
Goal Weight: 125lbs
Height: 5'3"
Age: 20

Challenge: Mind - read an article about something you’re normally not interested about.

My choice of article was "How Arizona, Ohio, Oklahoma, executions went awry"
It was kind of interesting and disturbing to say the least. Though, I feel like it wasn't really an article, persay, I felt like I was reading a book.

Let's talk about goals!

Some of you may be familiar with this:

HW: 186lbs       (Highest Weight)
LW: 126lbs        (Lowest Weight)
CW: 140lbs        (Current Weight)
GW1: 135lbs      (Goal Weight 1)
GW2: 130lns      (Goal Weight 2)
GW3: 125lbs      (Goal Weight 3)
UGW: 120lbs     (Ultimate Goal Weight)

I have separated my goal weights into 5 pounds each. It's a smaller, reachable goal to go with! I feel that this is more attainable. Now, to those of you who read this, think to yourself...What is your goal weight? How are you going to get there? Put them in small reachable segments and reward yourself for each goal reached!

REWARD, sounds like such a naughty thing doesn't it? Now, when I talk about reward I don't mean go on a binge or eat that piece of chocolate that you've been eyeing for the past week, NO. I mean take yourself to the beach, buy a new pair of earrings, or a new outfit.

For my first goal weight of 135lbs, when I reach that I am going to buy myself a new sports bra!  It's something I need, want, and will motivate me to keep losing weight. Then, once I get to GW1 and start thinking about GW2 I will eventually realize there is something else I have in mind. Maybe a new pair of running shoes or workout gear. When you get closer to that UGW, keep it up! I might go get a manicure or something not related to working out, for the sake of being a good girl.

I will be posting this link into Committed 2 Fit facebook group I am apart of. Ladies, if you read this tell us what your UGW is and what are your GW segments to getting there. Does this system I am using help you? If not what does? We all have our own ways of doing it! Comment below!

Depression.

Can we talk about something that no one really wants to talk about? Perhaps because it may too too awkward, too hard to understand, or for whatever other reasons...The number one reason for my slacking off with my workouts, diet, and lifestyle could be passed off for lazy. Perhaps, it is. But, the root cause behind my inattentiveness, avoidance, and completely disinterest is because of my depression. I've been struggling with it all my life and recently, I've had a relapse (since about November). I was working out on a daily basis, then I started to push myself too hard. I would work out until I'd pass out or hurt myself simply because my depression was so bad the only thing that would allow me to sleep was this (insomnia!) and my stress and darkness that over took me talks back to me in the mirror telling me I am fat, ugly, and all those negative things. I am still battling it today, right now, at this moment. Trying to get the motivation to get out of bed, get off the computer, work out, or even eat. I have to motivate myself to EAT. My depression manifests itself into anger, irritability, and the only way I found I can get rid of it was to work out non stop. But, then I started to lose weight and more weight. The more I lost the better I'd feel...So when I gained a healthy portion of weight back I got even more depressed. So upset because I have a distorted view that I look ugly and fat. I cannot shake it no matter how many time anyone can tell me other wise.