So, yea, I admit it...I have been slacking off with working out and eating healthier. It doesn't help I have had my great deal of stress (it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, can I get a little help here?). Lately things have just not been going right around here, bad luck everywhere I turn. I can't see to shake the blues off.
So, I had been planning on going to a "clean" diet next month. A whole month of no fast food, fried, or processed foods. (Sounds easy enough huh?). But, today, while waiting in the car, I noticed three bumps behind my ear on my neck. Now, I have always had this small lump there before for my entire life but this time there were two larger ones. They don't hurt, they are solid, and they scare me. Now, I can't just run to the doctor and say "Hey, Doc, whats up!?" I'm broke and have no insurance. I read some where that eating too much sugar (which I might be guilty of in this past week, it was my birthday after all...) can cause your lymph nodes to swell, and that MIGHT be it. Anyways, I have decided to eat into my "clean" eating this last week of May to start for June. I hope cutting out sugar will help me out. If not, I will go ask a nurse for some help on whether or not I should see a doctor.
As for working out I really do need to get into the routine again and I do plan on working out daily along with this new diet plan I am starting. For now, this isn't to lose weight. It's to maintain and to keep myself healthy. I really cannot afford another hospital bill.
Before
BEFORE
When I graduated high school I weighed a good 183 lbs. Not that anything was wrong with that, I have seen beautiful women who have weighed more than that! But, I wasn't happy with myself. I was miserable not being able to wear what I wanted and hated that I could barley fit into my graduation dress when the day came. Now, I would like to tell you that I was determined to lose weight, I worked hard, etc. But, that is the thing...I didn't. I suffered from my Gallbladder attacks nightly, daily, and all in between. So, I started to lose weight with a combination of birth control and being sick. As November of 2013 hit, I got down to 140! After my surgery that month, I was down to 128 lbs. My goal was to be 120! This is a healthy weight for my height (5'3") and I plan on gaining and toning my muscles in my arms, stomach, legs, and butt. My goal is not to be "perfect" or "beautiful". My goal is to be happy with who I am PHYSICALLY. UPDATE: A few years later, I still struggle with my weight. I was steady at 130lbs and have gotten myself back up to 155lbs. This is where I'm starting again Nov 8 2014
When I graduated high school I weighed a good 183 lbs. Not that anything was wrong with that, I have seen beautiful women who have weighed more than that! But, I wasn't happy with myself. I was miserable not being able to wear what I wanted and hated that I could barley fit into my graduation dress when the day came. Now, I would like to tell you that I was determined to lose weight, I worked hard, etc. But, that is the thing...I didn't. I suffered from my Gallbladder attacks nightly, daily, and all in between. So, I started to lose weight with a combination of birth control and being sick. As November of 2013 hit, I got down to 140! After my surgery that month, I was down to 128 lbs. My goal was to be 120! This is a healthy weight for my height (5'3") and I plan on gaining and toning my muscles in my arms, stomach, legs, and butt. My goal is not to be "perfect" or "beautiful". My goal is to be happy with who I am PHYSICALLY. UPDATE: A few years later, I still struggle with my weight. I was steady at 130lbs and have gotten myself back up to 155lbs. This is where I'm starting again Nov 8 2014
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